After my counselling session I felt, well – I’m not sure. Tense, numb, devastated, hopeful, frustrated. I went to the pub. A pint, desperate attempts to relax. Poetry seemed the only course of action: @shankanalia.
No titles I’m afraid but I’m sure they’ll emerge in due course.
Tension crawls up my spine
A tremor in the tendons
A twist in the muscle
Bunched
Writhing
Inside out
Contorted remembrance
Scorned bones.
I’d blind you
Take your eyes
And hands
Make an homunculus
To dwell in darkness
And torment
To make you real
Gift you suffering
Bless with pain.
How can I see the edge of a shadow
When it ends in darkness?
Where does the lie feed into The lost?
If I don’t remember I shouldn’t feel.
Your shadow
Fear filled emptiness
Void of hope
A shell of humanity Ghast
penumbral parasite
Drains
Darkens
Bleakly
Steals my soul
My truth.
Chaos of recollection
Flood of blame
The rippled doubt
Taints all things
With dubious stain
Belief is not the same
As knowing
Or hoping.
Can I trust the me that lies behind
Lost in the misted memory?
Had the answers
But couldn’t believe.
Agony of discovering
You were right before.
Mirrored grey
Flecked with truth
Concealing fictions
Cracked schismatic
Grinding tesselation of self.
Revelatory glass
Windows of true lies.
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One thought on “We Are What We Overcome – Podcast Episode 3”
Interesting podcast. I was struck by the nearer absence of talking about personal feelings in a context of talking about feelings. There was a lot of humour used whenever they got anywhere near talking about difficult personal feelings or feelings about each other. In this sense, despite some brave attempts, perhaps an opportunity missed to actively demonstrate “how to do it/be it” and it became an intellectual exercise, where suicide was allowed to sneak out of the room and be about others and not those present. Perhaps such discussions would benefit from having a skilled facilitator who would keep the discussion focused in the here and now. The best example of this is the “check out”, where all are asked to disclose feelings, yet only ‘thoughts’ in the main are offered. However, I will listen to other episodes and would offer encouragement to the participants for what is a valiant endeavour.
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