Slightly Broken Daily Check In, 6 – Back in the Horse 9 Apr 20199 Apr 2019 I have, reluctantly, been re-prescribed amitriptyline. It's really hard not to see this as a failure. So hard, in fact, that I am feeling that I've failed. I realise that…
Slightly Broken Daily Check In, 4 29 Mar 201929 Mar 2019 Ah a day off, opportunity for endless lying in... Or waking up even earlier than intended. Win. In any case I'm off to try to snag cheap tickets for Skellig…
Slightly Broken Daily Check In, 2 27 Mar 201927 Mar 2019 'Nother night, 'nother morning. Today feels better, or rather, I feel brighter today. It's the up and down which is exhausting - not knowing how I'll feel when I wake…
Slightly Broken Daily Check In, 1 26 Mar 201926 Mar 2019 How to express the disappointment of being awake, again. It's crushing. Every night I fall asleep imagining it might be the last time, and the next day I'm torn from…
Assorted Ramblings An Occasional Entry in a Dream Diary: Change, Maps and Attack 15 May 201728 Jun 2017 I don't often recall my dreams these days, blessed be the drugs. When I do, I haven't slept well, and they've been exhausting. Since last night was unusually intact, even hours…
Assorted Ramblings… Slightly Broken – The Old Switcheroo Part 2 12 Sep 201412 Sep 2014 All Change Please And Go Back The Way You Came I've stopped taking the new stuff. Trazodone, which sounds satisfyingly like 'taser-dome' and conjures joyous imaginings of Mad Max III…
Assorted Ramblings… Slightly Broken – The Old Switcheroo 9 Sep 20149 Sep 2014 Hello Sun, You Vicious Bastard I'm writing this at 5am on Monday morning. That's not a good thing. That's not a good thing at all. That means I haven't slept…
Slightly Broken Autofiction: Morning Horrors 10 Sep 201310 Sep 2013 The Ghastly Future There's something about the morning that just feels rich with the potential for horror. For a start I don't like the morning. It seems an unnecessary part…
Slightly Broken Autofiction: Tasty Tasty Amitriptyline 20 Aug 201319 Aug 2013 Waiting To Sleep Thirteen was when I first remember being unable to sleep. I suppose it coincided with the onset of puberty and all the biochemical hell that our ridiculous…
Assorted Ramblings… Autofiction: Anxiety Weaving 4 Jun 20136 Aug 2013 I Am In Control Odd title, I know. It was just a term that occurred to me when I was thinking about what to write this week. I wanted to…
Slightly Broken Slightly Broken: Tension, Always in the Stomach 4 Nov 201226 Aug 2013 I assume other people get this, a twisting heaviness in the pit of my stomach. (Or rather, where I imagine my stomach to be - it's actually somewhat lower in…
Slightly Broken Slightly Broken: Sleeping Better 5 Jun 20126 Jun 2014 So - a week out of therapeutic support now. And how am I doing? Pretty well I think. I've had quite a lot on, several shows and opportunities for showing…
Slightly Broken Slightly Broken: How to get a bad night’s sleep 1 29 May 20126 Jun 2014 This week started pretty badly for me on the snooze front. I'm going to partly blame it on my other half, the Lady M (anonynymity in this blog is by…
